As of today, November 3rd, 2009, I am going to start keeping a, dare I say it, journal ( I wish there was a better word. Makes it sound so feminine) because I don’t really have anybody to talk to. Since I may end up publishing this on a website of some sort just to see what comments I get, I suppose I should give whoever is reading a basic rundown of me and my life up to this point. My name is James Hayden, I like to go by Jim though, James is too formal for me. I am 14 years old, born January 17th. I live in a small house with a pool, a good neighborhood (by today’s low standards) and I have a few good friends. I have been playing guitar for a little over two years now, After I believe 5 years of tae kwon do I got my black belt last march. I even got a silver medal in the Junior Olympics in sparring. I like rock/metal music most of the time, but it really just depends on my mood. My favorite bands are Avenged Sevenfold and Slipknot. I am currently 6 feet tall (can you tell I’m just saying stuff as it comes to me?) and 200 pounds. I am a little overweight, but I am very muscular and in pretty good shape. I love to ride my bike around town, I ride probably a in between 15-40 miles a week. I also love to go to the nature preserve by my house, I actually just found a little waterfall like 2000 feet up on the mountain which isn’t that far because I believe I live at 1300 feet. I live with my mom, my dad, share a room with my brother (1 of 2 brothers I have) and my great grandmother shares a room with my sister (1 of 6 sisters). We watch my hyperactive niece tori most days of the week. There. I think that’s most of it. I started writing because in the past few years things have gotten out of hand. It really started like 2 and a half years ago when my sister Jamie- lynn (the one that lives with us ) first forged a report card (she’s 15 now, it was her freshman year in highschool, so I guess really just a year and a half ago). A third into the school year, she pulled us all out and started homeschooling us for fear that we (me, 13, and my brother joe, 12, at the time) would follow in fail and follow in suit. I thought this was unfair and wrong, especially since I am nothing like them. They are adopted (from my older sister autumn. Autumn was a drug addict and after losing to children to the CPS my mom swore she would adopt the next one. Unfortunately, she didn’t find out about the next one until it was two, so she had to take both. Then, like 10 years later, Autumn comes back around and tells everybody she living in a sobriety house and wants to be part of the family again. Actually, I am different from all of my brothers and sisters, because I am the only one from my mom and dad. They both were previously married to other people, and all the other kids are from one or the others previous “soul mate”) and both have ADHD and Jamie-lynn is Bi-Polar. The year of home school sucked, as I was stuck inside all day most days with my stupid brother and sister, and my mother was obsessed with all my assignments being perfect. I thought I might be able to make some friend at the weekly events at the home school office of my county, but I had no such luck. Most of the kids were way to young, and the ones that weren’t were there because they had something wrong with them. The one person there that I had some hope for was there because her mom didn’t want her exposed to all the bad in the world, and her mom gave me the evil eye if I even hinted at anything going on in the modern world. After that year passed, My Sister was caught giving out all of our information on myspace to anybody who wanted it (ever heard of the craigslist killer?) and talking about how she wanted to be with her real mom and making up all this crap about being beat and having bruised ribs and how she is going to run away to be with some horny boy who is probably 48 years old. I like myspace, but my mother doesn’t allow it due to past incidents and all the crap on the she wrote really set my parents off. So, not wanting to be any more overwhelmed than she already is (we lead a busy life, homeschool was to much for her. She enrolled us in a private online school. Many events have gone down since then, pretty much all bad. These events have left my sister convinced the world is out to get her and my mom is an evil bitch, my brother acting stupid as ever without my parents watchful eyes on him, my mom and emotional wreck who gets depressed of pissed at the slightest thing, and my dad not wanting to be at home and getting back to his old habits of drinking and smoking. Not to mention me being pissed at all of them. I know my life sounds like a soap opera, but this is it, and I have to have some way to deal with it, this being it. I’ll probably keep writing like this for a while, at least until things get better and I don’t have a reason to vent. I doubt it will be a daily thing though, I hate schedules.